bedtime thoughts

Bedtime thoughts at 11.40 pm:

Will "Malays forget easily" when crunch time comes this Sunday ?

If so, the words of my ustaz 15 years ago that our grandchildren will piss on our grave 20 years on due to our actions today might just be prophecy.

Astaghfirullahalzhim.. may Allah help us when the time comes ; hopefully the right decisions will be made for the continuity or our religion in this country the way it has always been..

Amin..

Zarina Amin 3-05-2013
Adelaide

Kita pikul amanah ini

“Sesungguhnya kami telah mengemukakan amanat kepada langit, bumi dan gunung-gunung; semuanya enggan untuk memikul amanat dan mereka khawatir akan mengkhianatinya, lalu dipikullah manah itu oleh manusia. Sesungguhnya manusia itu amat zhalim dan amat bodoh.” 

(Surah al-Ahzab : 72)

 KITA PIKUL AMANAH INI

Amanah,
Suatu ungkapan
Yang hanya dengan sebutan
Umpama dentaman halilintar
Mampu mengeggar
Setiap benak yang sedar

Apatah lagi
Pabila perlu direalisasi
Laksana onak duri
Hirisan perit dan pedih bertubi-tubi


Resahnya aku
Memikul harapan ini
Supaya berjaya pada masanya
Siapalah aku
Yang tidak punya apa apa
Kekuatan badang mahupun senjata
Menjunjung, menggalas
Bukan ibarat seguni padi
Malah segunung intan pun
Tidak boleh mendeskripsi
Beratnya , sakitnya
Menembusi setiap zarah
Jasad dan sanubari

Bukan aku tak mensyukuri
Segala rahmat yang diberi
Peluang di tangan untuk memperbaiki
Serta sokongan rakan taulan
Saudara mara
Pengorbanan keluarga
Untuk aku meniti pelangi
Tatkala tiba masanya nanti

Tetapi
kadang kadang aku tertanya
Layakkah aku?
Bersediakah aku?
Mengapakah aku difikir berupaya?
Untuk menentang dugaan ini
Aku hanyalah manusia lemah
Selalu tersungkur
Bila rebah tak berupaya berdiri
Walau bagaimanapun aku cuba gagahi..

Seperti hari ini.......

Akan tetapi,
Selagi kita bersinggah di pelabuhan ini,
Tak akan aku berhenti,
Mencuba setiap hari
Dengan keringat dan air mata
Akan ku pikul amanah ini

Perjalanan kita amat jauh
Selagi nadi berdenyut,
Jantung berdegup
Kita bina jambatan ini
Untuk mereka menyeberanginya
Anak bangsa
Amanah kita..

Ya Allah..berilah aku semangat.
DemiMu, agamaku, bangsaku.

Amin Ya Rabb Al-Amin..

Zarina
Edited 9.01.2013

The most fanstastic holiday with family

The most fantastic holiday with my family has ended all too soon for me and has now left me feeling speechless with sadness and with an actual physical pain in my heart.
Yes the kids and Baba came for a break frm the 14th December 2012 and I have only just sent them off to the airprt for their flight at 10 am to Kuala Lumpur.
We had the most fantastic time together with lots of time going shopping and doing kids stuff at the beach and the park. I know they have to go home but I wish they could stay with me a bit longer. Never realized how much I missed them.
Now that I have come home into the room that they spent two weeks in, I feel like I needed to go away from here a bit there's just too much of them here.
Sedih sangat. I pray that Allah will make it better. So miss my Sai-Uh, Arian and Baba.
Will post some photos of kids in a bit.
Mama miss sangat.

Rooftop Prince OST lyrics -MY favourite..!!

Hello guys..hope you will enjoy this lovely song titled 'After A Long Time Has Passed' by Baek Ji Young...I love it...teman saya masa rindu Baba and anak anak :-)

BAEK JI YOUNG - AFTER A LONG TIME HAS PASSED

Ma ju bo myo nan u don
nye gi dul
u ri dul man a rat don
nye gi dul
ji ul su om na bwa
bo ril su nom na bwa
it ji mo tan na bwa

o ren ma ne du lo bon
go ri dul
i gi rul ji nal te myon
jo wa het don
gi o gi
ja ku to o la so
bal gi rul mom chun da

han cham ji na so
na ji gu myo gi wa so
gu te ga gu ri wo so
mo run che sa ra do
seng gang na do ra
gu ron no ra so
ja ku nu ne bar pyo so
ham ke bo nen shi gan dul
chu ok dul do
byol cho rom so da jin
nun de
non o to ni

heng bok he man
bo i nun sa ram dul
na man hon ja
no e ro i na mun gon
man ga ta so
a nin chok he bwa do
ni seng ga gi nan da

han cham ji na so
na ji gu myo gi wa so
gu te ga gu ri wo so
mo run che sa ra do
seng gang na do ra
gu ron no ra so
ja ku nu ne bar pyo so
ham ke bo nen shi gan dul
chu ok dul do
byol cho rom so
da jin nun de
nun mu ri na

yo gi so nol
gi da ri myon
bol su i sul ka
gu ten mal
he jul su i sul ka
i ron ne ma u mul

bo go shi po so
do bo go shi po jo so

gu ron na ra so
nan no ba ke mo la so
no ob shi sal da bo ni
mo dun ge hu nwe ro
ga duk ha do ra
ni ga ob so so
ho jo nan ge do ma na so
o nul do bal ko ru mun
i ja ri ga
gu ri wo ga ji mo ta go
bu lo bon da

The Outcome of Major Review 26.11.2012

Assalamualaikum all,
Well so sorry it has taken me a few days to write about how the review went. I was mostly spending this last week trying to shake off the demons as well as the tiredness from the review preparation and have been very busy destressing myself this weekend by doing shopping..!
Well the demon word has come out in the first paragraph so from that you can gather it didn't go very well. Well at least for me. My supervisors said my presentation was pretty good and that the review committee was satisfied syukur alhamdulillah for that. But my was it a harrowing experience.
First up I was told the presentation was excellent by many of my friends. In the first part of the morning when James and Claudia listened to my presentation in the morning I was still very shaky in many parts. Somehow when I presented I had managed to pull myself together and it went well. One of the main reasons for that was a lot of duas prior to starting as well as Gagi and Arian's photo placed on the rostrum where I was speaking. That served as a reminder that I had to do it for them and it worked like a charm.
Nevertheless when the questions sessions started it was a different story altogether. Suffice to say I was only able to answer the first few questions before facing a proper mental block where I could not answer anything.
When I got called by the review committee the same thing happened. I had never been so embarassed in my life and until now I feel it. Nevertheless I am happy to say the committee was satisfied so I will soon get a letter from Sean the Postgraduate Coordinator to tell me how it went.
In a way I think it was also good that I fumbled so that I can really realize I have many gaps in my understanding of the project that I needed to adress. Also Allah does not want me to feel arrogance in case it went really well in all areas. So syukur alhamdulillah for that.
Now I am just relaxing before the real work starts tomorrow.
Got other things to talk about but will write in a different post.
See you then..!!

my best friend

Saya tidak boleh mengharapkan sesiapa pun di dunia ini memahami apa yang saya lalui sekarang tetapi mungkin saya tersilap agar perasaan saya dihargai, samada suka takut resah atau pun gelisah.

Setiap pengalaman yang saya lalui di sini adalah baru untuk saya dan saya sedar sekarang saya adalah satu-satunya rakan terbaik saya selama 3 tahun ini, dan yang lain merupakan suara yang sangat jauh yang hanya dekat apabila mempunyai masa untuk mendengar. Saya akur masa mereka bukan hak saya.

Jadi to my best friend Zarina : I depend on you for next week

Yes. we have each other.

:-)

You have got this Zarina -MAJOR REVIEW 26.11.2012

I have never been so scared in my life. I have headache, feel sick to my stomach and my review is still two days away.
Maybe its because for the first time I realize that I have no one else but myself to depend on for what is probably one of the biggest stuff that I have to face in my life. My family's not here. No friends.
I am scared but I will do my best to depend on me.
I am my best shot.