Like millions of people in this world who were rudely shocked by Michael Jackson's sudden passing, I am still trying to deny he's gone. But know its not true. He is. He really is. I am so sad ; a feeling like this I have not felt in such a long time.
Michael, you have touched the lives of me and my sisters . You brought us together in our toughest moments after my dad died and with your Thriller videos we had something to refrain us from being sad all the time.
Like everyone else who had what they called 'a Michael Jackson moment' mine was braving 'hard labour' working in a darned Bangladeshi takeaway in Liverpool in 1995 and paid 24.99 pounds out of my first 50pound /week wages on your double History CD which were released in July of that year and remembering smiling all the way in the bus because I had something so grand in my bag ( CD in a Virgin plastic bag) although I knew I was probably going to starve all week with no money as we were so skint you wouldn't believe it.
I love you Michael. You are the greatest and always will be.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Last bit to add
Maybe a tiny weeny reason that perhaps explains why I feel like a million dollars is that my E-Science grant came through!!!!!!! 200K to do quorum sensing research. Syukur alhamdulillah.
What is life if not fraught with challenges
Something rather strange happened to me today, well feelings that is. A couple of hours ago, I went out to withdraw some money out at the cash machine initially hoping to God that I still have tens of Gs in my account. Unfortunately since last month we have been running a bit short on the cash flow so of course my bank balance wouldn't be that much. My normal self until today would be dreading the ATM trip to see my bank balance as I hate to see it at the 5G level which means 'danger' but of late thats how it has been. So imagine my surprise (of myself) when I walked up to the ATM, saw my dangerously low bank balance (honestly dangerous I tell you) withdrew 100 and said to myself, hey why do I still feel GOOD ?
I guess what actually happened is the events that unfolded in the past couple of weeks in my life and that of my loved ones have made me realize that life for me is not just about money. Its made me realize that there comes a point in life that there are more enjoyable things to do than count to see if the next K that you bank into your account can make your bank balance to 100Gs. Sure I still have to chase one or two people still who owe me the green bills but then at the end of the day thats all they are. Green bills.
In a weeks time I will be spending my 10th year anniversary with the one man I love most in my life along with my two boys, mum and brother and of course my soon to be slave oldest Kak Long..haha..
In the far horizon over in KL I have my two other sisters whom I cherish and alhamdulillah unlike many people am still in very close contact with.
Money. Why does people who have so much of it still don't have enough?
Right now I am pretty darn excited about our one night getaway to the Magellan Sutera for our 10th anniversary where me and Endy plan to go for a full Thai massage at this joint in Penampang, (hotel compliments from Globalprivelege thank you!) then do things we used to do when we were dating : watch movies, go to Reject Shop ( in KK ada F.O.S only la) and then do lots of married things ( go figure). We are going to spend one whole day with each other : all 24 hours of it and I cannot wait ( Kids to be babysat by my wonderful family thank you!). I am so glad I have this wonderful man for my husband. Sure we did have our ups and downs when we were in Sheffield but thank God we weathered through it because no matter how hard it was, we never gave up on each other. And now it seems that he really is going up the career ladder and I am so proud and happy for him. I truly cherish the 18 years we have together, 10 of which as husband and wife.
Then there is my mum. She is a really wonderful mum to have who understands all my mood swings and never kecil hati with me. She is always happy to help out even in her condition and I cannot be more blessed having a mum like her.
My siblings: What else can I say but SPECTACULAR! well, this is one reason I feel sometimes having 10 ringgit in your purse is not as bad as compared to one quarrel with your sis. My youngest sis came to KK last week and instead of enjoying ourselves I managed to pick an argument with her after which I felt really crap about. It was only after we made up that I felt a huge burden off my shoulders and it felt way better than having 15Gs to spend six months ago.
My kids: So proud to be their mums. They are both ever so clever. truthfully I can see even now that I think I know what each of them are going to end up to be: Arian : Lawyer as he likes to pick arguments as make a fuss when he feels 'victimised' . Gagi will probably be a sound engineer when he grows up as he likes to do stuff on youtube pertaining sound and then godek my Laptop. I now press a key and its a shortcut for something, courtesy of Eizaqeel Hakim Sazmal Effendi. Can't even key in my password for anything.
Friends and other family : another gem in my life: Aree, Syirin,Tun, ABalong ( I miss himla), and not forgetting my my brilliant mum and dad in law.
I think my life is truly blessed.
So what if I haven't money in the bank?
I guess what actually happened is the events that unfolded in the past couple of weeks in my life and that of my loved ones have made me realize that life for me is not just about money. Its made me realize that there comes a point in life that there are more enjoyable things to do than count to see if the next K that you bank into your account can make your bank balance to 100Gs. Sure I still have to chase one or two people still who owe me the green bills but then at the end of the day thats all they are. Green bills.
In a weeks time I will be spending my 10th year anniversary with the one man I love most in my life along with my two boys, mum and brother and of course my soon to be slave oldest Kak Long..haha..
In the far horizon over in KL I have my two other sisters whom I cherish and alhamdulillah unlike many people am still in very close contact with.
Money. Why does people who have so much of it still don't have enough?
Right now I am pretty darn excited about our one night getaway to the Magellan Sutera for our 10th anniversary where me and Endy plan to go for a full Thai massage at this joint in Penampang, (hotel compliments from Globalprivelege thank you!) then do things we used to do when we were dating : watch movies, go to Reject Shop ( in KK ada F.O.S only la) and then do lots of married things ( go figure). We are going to spend one whole day with each other : all 24 hours of it and I cannot wait ( Kids to be babysat by my wonderful family thank you!). I am so glad I have this wonderful man for my husband. Sure we did have our ups and downs when we were in Sheffield but thank God we weathered through it because no matter how hard it was, we never gave up on each other. And now it seems that he really is going up the career ladder and I am so proud and happy for him. I truly cherish the 18 years we have together, 10 of which as husband and wife.
Then there is my mum. She is a really wonderful mum to have who understands all my mood swings and never kecil hati with me. She is always happy to help out even in her condition and I cannot be more blessed having a mum like her.
My siblings: What else can I say but SPECTACULAR! well, this is one reason I feel sometimes having 10 ringgit in your purse is not as bad as compared to one quarrel with your sis. My youngest sis came to KK last week and instead of enjoying ourselves I managed to pick an argument with her after which I felt really crap about. It was only after we made up that I felt a huge burden off my shoulders and it felt way better than having 15Gs to spend six months ago.
My kids: So proud to be their mums. They are both ever so clever. truthfully I can see even now that I think I know what each of them are going to end up to be: Arian : Lawyer as he likes to pick arguments as make a fuss when he feels 'victimised' . Gagi will probably be a sound engineer when he grows up as he likes to do stuff on youtube pertaining sound and then godek my Laptop. I now press a key and its a shortcut for something, courtesy of Eizaqeel Hakim Sazmal Effendi. Can't even key in my password for anything.
Friends and other family : another gem in my life: Aree, Syirin,Tun, ABalong ( I miss himla), and not forgetting my my brilliant mum and dad in law.
I think my life is truly blessed.
So what if I haven't money in the bank?
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