Why doesn't it feel any better?

Today is the weekend..and like any other previous ones since Feb 2012 something I dread going through. It will be a longer weekend than usual as it will be a Bank Holiday Monday tomorrow. On Friday I honestly thought that I was going to look forward to this long weekend what with so much work to do but as Sat progressed to Sunday I felt even more homesick than I did before. When will this get better?
I have tonnes to do for work but somehow just do not feel bothered. JID paper introduction is a task assigned for me by Claudia but for some reason I am leaving it at the backburner. All that is on my mind is HOME...
I know I am lucky to be given this opportunity to better myself but these few months without family has been so hard. Dont know what else to say. Its a good thing my lab and housemates have been a gem but somehow it cannot cover this void that I have that I feel gets bigger and bigger with each passing day.
Help..

I so miss these lot in my life

To the Shylock of Permatang Pauh

Antonio, in scene III Merchant of Venice says of Shylock the Jew:

"The devil can cite scripture for his purpose.
An evil soul producing holy witness,
Is like a villain with a smiling cheek;
A goodly apple rotten at the heart:
O, what a goodly outside falsehood hath!"

Antonio, scene iii - Merchant of Venice of Shylock the Jew

to which Shylock will reply :

" The villainy you teach me I will execute, it will go down hard but I will better the instruction"

Sounds familiar? And to whose purpose but his own?

Dedicated to my dearest Baba

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One of the days where its really hard and I wonder....

Its been one of the days where its hard. Really hard.Its been raining all day, I couldn't speak to Endy as he was so busy with his Asasi Open day not even a tiny message for the past 8 hours. Not spoken to kids. Days been lousy have not spoken to kids for fear that my mood will set them off feeling worse than happy. Not been able to get washing machine to work. Clothes torn a bit and had to hand wash instead coz the machine's broke. Couldnt get to gym because its raining and bus detouring further off now from home.
Makes me wonder what the hell am I doing here....

What a lovely Monday its been today!!

Hello all,
Well today started off with me making sandwiches for lunch which comprised 99.9% fat free Philadelphia cheese, rocket,lettuce and crabsticks in fat free mayonaisse in white..yum yum!! Then when Nani and I stepped out of the house the weaher was ever so nice and cool I could jump in joy!! Later like every other Monday both me and Claudia made our way to WCH to...well you guessed it cross inoculate more samples..! This time we managed around 250 samples in total for a day which now basically leaves us about 1300 ish more to go.. By the time we finished it was lunch time and I was really happy to munch away the sandwich I had made which after that made me feel very happy with myself :)
Today I finally got to meet Richard one of the postdocs who has just had a baby and a two week paternity leave. Like everyone else in my group he's really nice.
I also got told by David and Charlie that my British accent was still strong..so oops! :-)
Just got off Facetime with my lovelies Baba Arian and Gagi. The reasons I am doing this really really hard thing in my life right now. But the chat was a good one, happy sampai the kids nak tidur and Baba going all sleepy. A perfect way to end today.
To sum up, today has been a wonderful day for me ; syukur alhamdulillah. Can't thanks you enough, Allah Ya-Rabbi.
Speak to you all soon..!

Now time for some photos..! Enjoy!

me and dearest Beave walking through the park on Saturday
The walk to my unit/apartment
The street where I live
The bus stop for when I am too lazy to walk


My very messy study table in my room- well they say a tidy table is a sign of an idle mind right?

Syukur alhamdulillah for MUCH better weather

Hello all,
Late last night before I went off to bed feeling very very uncomfortable due to the terrible high temperature and heat ( it was bleeding 39C yesterday can you beat that???) I promised myself that I will no longer allow myself to be subjected to this much discomfort that I planned to go out today and hide somewhere in the cool nice atmosphere of a shopping plaza somewhere and catch 'Safe House' while I were at it. The reason for this was I felt so bleeding annoyed at feeling so uncomfortable on the Saturday but was duly informed by mates that Sunday was going to be worse.
So imagine my suprise when I woke up this morning to cooler temperature. At first I told myself don't get too ahead in your thoughts Zarina its still early hours yet. So I decided that since I was going to only go out sometime at 11 am I was going to curl in up bed and get up when it starts to feel uncomfortable. But then when I did eventually get out of bed it still didnt feel warm out and was tremendously surprised to see clouds outside a cool breeze coming through our windows.
After a nice fried Indomie breakfast and chat with Nani we decided that the weather has now gotten cooler and will probably not be as hot as yesterday.
Well that notion really cheered me up and after discussing with Nani about going out I got to call my family, and sisters and that really made my day.. :-)
So basically I got to go out today but had to walk via another route since the were closing Bartel Road and placing bandstands and seats for the upcoming Clipsal Race here in March. It was a good day as I got to do some grocery shopping and had a nice big serving of Boost! By three pm we were home and still sempat sembahyang Zuhur.
Oh, I also ordered the kids' XBox 360 Star Wars Kinect at a whopping AUD549. Although after that I am now officially skint I am happy that I have managed to get the kids and their dad what they would really like.
Today, I am a happy bunny and I have to thank Allah for this unexpected surprise of cheerfulness brought on mainly by the much milder weather..plus the fact that I got to speak with my family and got to do something nice for the kids and Baba which I know they will happy about.
Tomorrow it will be another 300 samples to inoculate. But I am looking forward to it.
See you guys!